Changes

So, I like, flaked out at the end of the last post. All of a sudden, it was as if someone flipped my off switch. I could not keep my eyes open. I really didn't want to leave a post open-ended, so I tried to muddle through and finish it, even if I sounded like I was on acid. LOL

Big change today- well, more like a decision that will lead to a big change. In the effort to appear more "legit", I ordered the study guide for the PPA certification exam. I's is on my way to becoming certified. From the sample questions I've read, it's NO joke. But, I know that learning more about my trade and the different aspects can only serve to make me a stronger photographer, so I'm stoked!

DSS, J, arrives tomorrow from somewhere out west. DSS stands for Dear Step Son, btw. The kids are excited he'll be coming out, and he'll be through the first week of August. Somehow, it doesn't seem quite real to me. It is, but it doesn't seem that way. I'm excited, don't get me wrong, but he's flying out later this year. Usually, he's already been out here for 2 weeks already.

I also odered a Self-Help book. Something about how to change your thought process to get what you want out of life. At least, I think that's the one I ordered. I had one I thought looked good, then I saw another one. Hmm... Oh well, whatever I ended up with should help give me a slightly different perspective on myself. And I'm ALL about that.

You see, not only was/am I a broken individual in the way of spiritually, but it has seeped over to the physical realm. I am OVERWEIGHT. I am just a smidge below 5"4 and close to 200 lbs. Granted, I've had 4 kids in a little over 5 years, but I could be healthier. I should be thinner. I love strombolis, and iced coffees, and cherry pastries, and red wine, and cool ranch doritoes, and chocolate/PB combinations, and pizza. So, I'm chunky.

To be fair to me, I am trying harder in some areas. I've kicked soda a few times this year. I'm currently in a no soda period. So, I'm not getting calories from THAT. I've minimized the strombolis and pastries and overall, the sweets. To be honest, though, I hate exercising. I've tried all sorts of stuff, and I stay with it for awhile. I've found that if I slip ONE DAY, I lose it. One tiny little slip up and I can't get back in the groove. Meh.

Sleep is also something I should give more priority to. So, I'm going to do just that. Night!